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Saturday, February 28, 2004
Mood:Sickly
SOC :"Ourselves" by Ayumi Hamasaki
Topic: New layout

Ehh I feel sick X_x I knew I shouldn't have eaten that wal-mart chicken--always makes me sick damn Ben for insisting I have some...damn me for giving in to shut him up. Well made a new layout hehe I like this format I just change the pics. This is Duh Endless Sorrow from Ayumi Hamasaki. This is one of my favorite looks of hers. It took like 5 second to edit the pic and make it be what I wanted--it just took me about 4 hours to find it ehhh. Anyway...Ben had a boyscout thing I went to that gave me the headache from hell to add to the naseaua from the damned wal mart chicken. I'm going to go now and try and do some more research damn paper.....

Kim
PS LUM AND CAT HAVE A NICE HOUSE!!!!......I want a house I should take pictures of my mouse hole for you guys to see
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Tuesday, February 24, 2004
please stop arguing in my comment box......
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Thursday, February 19, 2004
Mood:Pissed
SOC "Introduction" by Thursday
Topic: I hate religion

Kim is very relgious but at the same time...very anti relgious. I believe in the idea of being kind and hoping for somthing better later---but when people want to throw in discrimination then NO I HATE RELIGION


Trust no one, Question everything, think for yourself, fear no one, kill ignorance, fight the power.

Okay talking about the c of N (see bottom) and basically about how 1 man basically decided that Christ was both mortal and divine. Cool Great. These people here piss me off. They want to be likequestion science but they want me to take at fave value these "prophecies." Well these people are basically saying believe somethint 1 person decided more than a thousand years ago.I hate dumb people this man is basically basing this on J.C saying if you look at me you'll see the father or God or something to that effect. That's JC saying he's God....now....what happened to that statment that said that God made everyone in his image????LOOK ANOTHER INTERPRETATION!!!!!!!!!!!!What makes these people believe that they could begin to understant the creator of the cosmos?! AND the arrogance to think that they are the only ones that are right? I'm not saying they are wrong but dude in the words of the Matrix FREE YOUR MIND! Possibilities come on people....


That was from yesterday now for today

Dad is mad at me because I think that gay marriages should be legal he said gay people were "sick" "dirty" "couldn't handle life" all this other stuff. I didn't bother to argue because well can't teach an old dog new tricks but all I did say was it's their lives. he was like well it affects my life when I'm trying to raise 2 kids (who he';s been around for for like 5 mintues) and one of them thinks that being gay is okay. OMG wtf.....and then ben's repeating yeah gays are dumb...that pissed me off too no end. Ben doesn't even know what he's saying--I HATE IT WHEN PEOPLE USE THE EXCUSE OF RELIGION TO DISCRIMINATE AND PERSECUTE...

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Saturday, February 14, 2004
Mood: Better from the Sugar High
SOC "Porcelan" by Thursday
Topic: Cheers to good friends

CHEERS TO GOOD FRIENDS!! Nancy made me a Valentine--the kind you make in Kindergarden outta crayon and cunstruction paper hehe I love it!! That's going in my scrap book. ^-^ Is happy for small Valentine full of love! I also got a gift

THURSDAY'S WAITING CD!!!



3 outta 4 CDs Baby!.....you can tell I've had too much chocolate..of course it maybe that I beat FFX again (Lisette has 2) and such a sad ending hehe.....

::smiles:: I fucking hate this month....

seriously....the highlight is the 4th and that's it the end......Gotta get the last Thursday CD ::nodds: Anyway.....yeah well

Happy Valentines Day



I hate this month
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Friday, February 13, 2004
Mood: Thinking not sad
SOC "Paris in Flames" by Thursday
Topic: Safe

You know I remember Jonnell had to write this thing once...about where she felt safe. I ddin't sleep well at all last night. I had terrible dreams...I remember three and they scared me. Anyway for some reason I asked myself...where do I feel safe?NOt at school sure as hell not there..not at home...where else? I think...the worlds problems spawn from lack of sleep. Hehe...I get 4 or 5 hours of sleep now a days...just enough to get by you know. I think the places I feel safe are moment are spaces in time place I can fall asleep in. Like I feel safe in Lisettes car...as broke down as it is I can sleep there. And her floor hehe. Nancy...I use to fall asleep on Nancy's arm in economics.....with Peter and Junior that one time I came to visit we all fell asleep or at least dozed...Danny's Van that one morning when we had off and we were going to eat some breakfast.

I think people make it safe. like remember when we all speculated on our lands if we were allowed a spot on an island by the name of Juntopia and I compared mine to the calm lands...well I think that's a portion of my mind..like when I'm in a place I feel safe I'm in the mental CAlm lands...but the rest of the time it's like Identity. Lots of rain coming down like no ones business and then the random Cathedral knwn as the sanctuary in the center of it with a hammock...where you sit to wait out the storm but the storm doesn't ever go away....

Where do I feel safe? Is there a place or is it only a state of mind? Hmmm....

So people...wehre do you feel safe?
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Tuesday, February 10, 2004
Mood:Long winded
S.O.C.: "Come with Me" by Koda Kumi

OKay I had to read an article by Stephen King for PSO English and here's what killed me and I wanted the others opinions. They kinda have the same voice style. I wrote this a while ago (Jan 30) but Blogger was being evil so I just sent it out as an e-mail to most of you guys but yeah anywho ^-^ I want you guys to compare is all and tell me what you think. Especially in King's last paragraph. Also I think King makes a lot of good/Jhonen points. Also I need to read this and analyze so this helps me too.

January 30th 2003--A rant about religion

Live and Let Live


Man….there are too many condescending overly zealous religious people in this world. I mean….I have my belief and you have yours. I’ll work my side of the street and you work yours and in the end we’ll all be okay.
For all of you super Christian people thinking, “but we’re only trying to save your immortal soul--we’re doing it for your good.”
I got three words for you--mind your business. Personally I think that Christianity might have been the beginning of the end. If you guys were awake for World History you know where this is spawning from. In the beginning-- cradle of life Gods and Goddesses and whomever your deity maybe no one went looking for trouble. The oriental religions didn’t force people to convert and what have you. The Japanese we’re a big melting pot. Shinto, Buddhism, and Zen all were present and intertwined. There may have been times when sure people were forced to change but I don’t think on as large a scale as when Christianity happened. Now that we can thank Christians for. Europeans came over to the Americas whipped out peaceful people with their disease and war and those that did survive were forced to give up their heritage.
Now don’t confuse the issue here I’m not saying that Christianity is bad or anything--I’m Roman Catholic in a free lance sort of way--what I am saying is that people need to live and let live. If I’m going to hell then let me sit in my hand basket in peace and enjoy the little happiness I have (which by God won’t be very much in this place) so when I am burning in hell in eternal anguish and pain I don’t have to think back and think good God why didn’t those freaky cult kids leave me alone.

The Bible


Oh Children shy away from this rant for this is not for the faint of heart. People….the Kings James Bible is not the only Bible. There were Bibles long before that one. And believe it or not kids things do get lost in translation. Also let us not forget that well not to sound like a conspiracy nut but the government only allows you to know what they want you to know. It’s not always freedom of speech and all that good stuff. Like people do you really know what’s going on in the outside world? Point being--back then only the learned could read the bible and if the king didn’t like what it said I’m sure he could have very easily changed it to something he did like. Point being keep people ignorant and they won’t revolt. The counter attack would be they were superstitious back then and feared to change the word of god, but the counter to that is simple human error. They don’t slaughter lone wolves guys--they slaughter masses of sheep. So silence those lambs and seek the truth.


Free will


Also for all you kids that can’t date outside your religion, aren’t suppose to do certain things because your religion says so--think long and hard about what I’m about to say. God gave us free will. The power to make our own choices. He gave us a suitable enough mind to differentiate between right and wrong. No one can be all good or all evil--we are not “clockwork oranges.” Besides for all you people that ask why does God allow bad things to happen? Because if he whipped out all the bad in this worlds then humanity would go right along with it.
With this said--why can’t you date outside your religion? Or why do you believe that above all the other religions, sects of Christianity and what have you , you’re the only ones that are right? Please work through your egoisms and take a look at the world. You do the whole church thing and what have you but why? Just because you were raised that way just to due what you are told? Conformity kills people. I’m not saying rage against “the man.” What I am saying is think about it. Your faith doesn’t offend me at all I just want you all to be able to have a firm stance in your faith. I believe in divine evolution and I can back myself up in this thinking. Can you guys defend your religious quirks? Do we all have to believe the same thing? Hell no but we can allow people to believe what they like and think things through. Also please stop preaching and start practicing. Do not go to Church Wednesday night and then Thursday morning start cussing up a storm. Do not go to Church Sunday morning and then Sunday night start banging some person you just met. Lets stop being pretentious and stop acting holier than though art and get REAL. We’re all human, we’re all flawed, no one is any better or more right than anyone else. Besides we got to share this planet, so lets make it easy for everyone and stop the stupidity.
Thank you.



"Why We Crave Horror Movies"
Stephen King

I think that we're all mentaly ill; those of us outseide the asylum only hide it a little better--and maybe not all that much better, after all. We've all knowon people who talk to themselves, people who sometimes squnich their faces into horrible grimaces when they believe no one is watching, people who have some hysterical fear--of snakes, the dark, tight places, the long drop...and, of course, those final worms and grubs that are waiting so patiently underground.

When we pay our four or five bucks and seat ourselves at tenth-row center in a theater showing a horror movie, we are daring the nightmare.

Why? Some of the reasons are obvious. To show that we can, that we are not afraid,that we can ride this roller coaster. Which is not to say that a reallu good horror movie maynot surprise a scream out of ud st some point, the way we screm when the roller coaster twists through a complete 360 or plows through a lake at the bottom of the drop. And horror movies, like roller coasters, have been the specail province of the young; by the time one turns 40 or 50, one's appetite fro double twists or 360 degree loops may be considerably depleted.

We also go to re-establish our feelings of essential normality; the horror movie is innately conservative, even reactionary. Freda Jackson as the horrible melting woman in Die, Monster, Die! confirms for us that no matter how far we may be removed from the beauty of Rober Redford or a Diana Ross, we are still light-years fomr the true ugliness.

And We go to have fun.

Ah, but this iwhere the ground starts to slope away, isn't it? Because this is a very peculiar sort of fun indeed. The fun comes from seeing others menaced--sometimes killed. One critic has suggested that if pro football has become the voyeur's version of combat, then horror films has become the modern version of the public lynching.

It is true that they mythic "fairytale" horror film intends to take away the shades of gray...It urges us to put away ourmore civilized and adult penchant for analysis and to become children again, seeing things in pure blacks and whites . It may be that horror movies provide psychic relif on this level because this initation to lapse into simplicity, irrationality, and even outright madness is extended so rarely. We are told we may allow or emotinos a free rein...or no rein at all.

If we are all insane, then sanitty becomes a matter of degree. If your insanity leads you to carve up women like Jack the Ripper or the Cleveland Torso Murder, we clap you alway in the funny farm (but neither of those two amateur-night surgeons was ever caught, heh-heh-heh); if, on the other hand your insanity leads you to only to tlak to yourself when you're under stress or to pick your nose on themorning bus, then you are left alone to go about your busines...though it is doubtful that you will ever be invited to the best parties.

The potential lyncher is in almost all of us (excluding saints, past and present; but then, most siants have been crazy in their own ways), and every now and then, he has to be let loose to scream and roll areound on the grass. Our emotions and our fears forn their own body, and we recognize that it demands its own excercise to maintain proper muscle tone. Certain of these emotional muscles are aceepted--even exalted--in civilized society; they are of course, emotions that tend to maintain the status quo of civilization itself. Love, friendship, loyalty, kindness--these are all the emotions that we applaud, emotions that have have been immortalized in the couplets f Hallmark cards and in the verses (I don't dare call it poetry) of Lenoard Nimoy.

When we exhibit these emotions, society showers us with positive reinforcement; we learn this even before we get out of diapers. When, as children, we hug out rotten little puke of a sisiter and give her a kiss, all the aunts and uncles smile and twit and cry, "Isn't he the sweetest little thing?" Such coveted treats as chocolate-covered graham crackers often follow. But if we deliberately slam the rottle little puke off a sister's fingers in the door, sanctions follow--angry remonstrance from parents, aunts, and uncles; instead of a chocolate covered graham cracker, a spankking.

But anticivilization emotions don't go away, and they demand periodic exerceise. We have "sick" jokes as, "what's the difference between a truckload of bowling balls and a truckload of dead babies? (You can't unload a truckful ogf bowling balls with a pitchfork...a joke, by the way, that I head originally from a ten-year-old boy). Such a joke may surprises a laugh or a grin out of us even as we recoil, a posibility that confirms the theseis: if we share a brotherhood of man. then we also share an insanity of man. Nono of which is intended as a defense of either the sick joke or insanit but merely as an explanation of why the best horror films, like the best fairy tales, mangae to be reactionary, anachistis and revolutionary all at the same time.

The mythic horror movie, like the sick joke, has a dirty job to do. It deliberately appeals to all that is worst in us. It is morbidity unchained, out most base instincts let free, our nastiest fantasies realized...and it all happens, fitting enough, in the dark. For those reasons, good liberals often shy away from horror films. For myself, I like to see the most aggressive of them--Dawn of the Dead, for instance--as lifting a trap door in the civilised forebrain and throwing a basket of raw meat to the hungry alligators swimming around in that subterranean river beneath.

Why bother? Because it keeps them from getting out, man. It keeps them down there and me up here. It was Lennon and McCartney who siad that all you need is love, and I would agree with that.

As long as you keep the gators fed."

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Sunday, February 08, 2004
Mood:Talkative
S.O.C.: "Blue and Yellow" by the Used--Someone Pirate the My Chemical Romance Cd because I couldn't find it in Savannah

Yeah this will be a grab back entry I had a lot more in my head but of course when I sat down I lost most of it. Oh well a few funny stories.

Friday Lisette, Jonnell and I were suppose to go out and do a few things (Joel was maybe coming) anyway I decided that I needed to crawl out of my slump of baggy clothes and look somewhat cute. Threw on the silk asian shirt I have none faded jeans and my bamboo shoes I wore to Nick's wedding. And ACTUALLY DID SOMETHING WITH MY HAIR--woo fear me. I also asked Lisette to spiffy-fy herself. So well to make a long story short at about 4 when we were suppose to head out Lisette calls and says that her car won't start. Her car is automatic so I assumed it was the battery. So I go over there and it's not until I get to her house that I realize that I really should changed. So I'm bent over her damn car (God that car has left us hanging so many times but that's another story) in the heels and silk shirt hooking up jumper cables. Oh yeah it was soo something out of some perverts fantasy. And then to make things complete it started to rain. Anyway in the end the car didn't start. Well I tried...she got it to start the nest day though hehe.

The other story is another Lisettes car story...I'm so going to take a picture of that hoopty to post on here. We have a Biology class at the college and it doesn't end til 10:30. Well this class last Monday ran right until 10:30 and then it was raining like nobody's business. So we're driving du du du..and that clunker stalls right at the gate and won't start. So we laughed a nervous laugh tried like 4 times and it started. Basically it was outta gas...adn there are 3 lights from the gate to the gas station. AND EVERY SINGLE ONE WAS RED! So Lisette would cost from light to light...and we got to the gas station and we only had like $6. So we're trying to pump gas and it won't do it so we go inside and they're like you gotta pay first...sure why not. So we put gas in the car drive home and then not even a week later the story above happens....thank God it didn't happen Monday night.

What else has a happend...Snuck a large Pizza into school that was funny....we shoulda brought two....lets see...brought Nancy Ramen noodles to school.
::sings:: should've done something but I've done it enough by the way your hands were shaking rather waste some time with you...

Um I think I finally made my tatoo selection



"So what's the real story behind this symbol? We'll answer that to the best of our ability and if we leave something out, be sure to write. We aim for accuracy at the Museum of Talking Boards. Here are the two current viewpoints (aside from the television version) of what the Triquetra symbolizes:

Christian Symbolism:
The Triquetra represents the Holy Trinity: the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. The unbroken circle represents eternity. The interwoven nature of the symbol denotes the indivisibility and equality of the Holy Trinity. It symbolizes that the Holy Spirit is three beings of power, honor, and glory but is indivisibly one God.
Pagan/Wiccan/Goddess Symbolism:
The Triquetra represents the threefold nature of the Goddess as virgin, mother and crone.
It symbolizes life, death, and rebirth and the three forces of nature: earth, air, and water. The inner three circles represent the female element and fertility"


taken from here

I like both sets I think it incompasses a lot of my ideas I have a strong belief that there is no way for any one set of beliefs to be completely right but they all have too much in common to be all wrong you know. I like the Christian set ( I wear 2 crosses everyday) but I also like the connection with nature. I like it because it incompasses so much. besides I also take it as a symbol for family and one phrase seperate but never isolated free but never alone. My Family has never really been too united but I hope the family I start will be.

Nancy might get one with me she liked this one



Yeah oh one last thing I'm working on a research paper having to do with ethnocentrism and perception in the work place so if anyone gets bored and wants to run a search and e-mail me things have at it! Thanks Later.
Kim

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Mood:Happy
S.O.C.: "Real Emotion" by Jade

Woot! look I made something. Yeah I know you guys must hate the same skeleton and diff graphics but I like this organization it's good. Lookie I shaded that and I used brushes and made it pretty full! I figured out some stuff too...but I couldn't get the text to do what I wanted so I just delelted it..well yeah that's about it
Kim

Serious edit after reading blogs

Hmm you know what even though I'm a ghost to the Columbus set (None of them really talk to me anymore except Junior) I still attempt to keep up. I give mad props to Lum. For having honesty not enough of that floating around I'm telling you. She probably won't read this but hey she still has my support. Long live frankness...I hate being politically correct fiercely. I mean sparing people's feelings is one thing and thinking before you speak is another too but sometimes...lets quit screwin around you know.

Lum said straight up that she thought that girl was a bitch.

I give her mad props for that because there are some peole that as of late have plumetted from my good graces. You know who you are I hope. I'm not going to start naming names for the simple fact of what always happens around here. Look what happened to Lum some one(I don't know who) got in her face about it. It's Lum's blog she can say whatever she wants. She can go to her blog and in big bold letters be like Kim is Lunatic may evil befall her and I'd nodd and be like okay I wonder what I did to her. Her space she can say whatever. And if I felt like arguing my sanity I could use her comment box which is the easiest road but if I was going to be serious then I'd probably e-mail her. I can say this because Lum and I have scrapped once before...in anycase whatever this was just me ranting and supporting Lum even though I really don't know what's going on.
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Friday, February 06, 2004
somewhere some how some way once upon a time so they say fairy tales are started this way and this one is no different about a man that loved a woman or maybe it was the other way but no matter which the ending is just the same poor creature spawn of unrequited love this story ends in tragdey but like none you've heard of there is no Romeo and hardly a Juliet still these loves were star crossed in the same stead a tale of flying bullets leaking wounds blooming roses and silent tombs of lovers on pedestals and thunder claps of death but there is no Romeo or Juliet. This is my story a story of pain one from beyond the grave a story for those who love without being weary a story without a Romeo

i found a blooming rose and it reminded me of you the closest thing that i sensed that was truth this truth was betrayl I turned to my hate I've relied on my tears,broken promises and bitter dreams i've relied on blades,drugs and all the negativity this soul bleeds cries yet again unheard I trusted you I brought you my love laid it down at the base of the pedestal I hold you on I believed in you still when I was met with a semi automatic barrell of termination to my forehead and in this praying position you blew me away love and all I brought you my love you brought me your bullets
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Thursday, February 05, 2004
OKAY I summon the power of my people that know how to work a paint program ^-^ we all know I just figured out brushes woot!
I want an old school Yuna layout...I have the stuff I want I just need some insanely talented person to meld it and make it work and add anything else they deem fit


Yeah that's all if anyone decides to take the job let me know

PS hey their turning battle angel into a movie for the US







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We'll we've all lost our bloody minds hehe. The desire to cospaly has overridden our sense so the search has begun and it's begun on simply reconissance. First Lisette Nancy and I were all going to cosplay as the ladies of FFx-2 which we couldn't start until closer to summer when all the hoe stuff came out...and since we've had months to wait...we started looking at other things I tried to stay with Yuna myself
Found a few pictures of different renfitions of her ear rings



Yuna has three ear rings...made of wood and beads I think....I found this one



but.....ehh $45 I think not

Anyway Nancy wants to be black mage Yuna I'm thinking no lol too complicate that's like me trying to do X Yuna woo I would be there for years.

I could do Lenne

with these earrings


These are cheaper! $6 but I'm worried about ear strain but at least I would still have my hair and it's natural color

And the lovely Tiny bees...that started for $9 on e-bay and are not $220...joy




Yeah yesterday Lisette found something that we might have been able to use for my shorts but it was a skirt...::tear:: Oh well we haven't found anything that we can make her costume out of....we may have to start from scratch which...would suck. But hopefully as summer gets closer we'l find nancy stuff WEAVE AND ALL!! (She hates weave)

yeah that's about it... ^-^I need to get another hole in my ear...but only when I actually figure out all three earings.
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Wednesday, February 04, 2004
Here's your update Quita
Lost of Links!!

Okay today is promo day at the big blue house ^-^ I'm here showing off a little of this smaller label called Eyeball Records--the first labe of the lovely Thursday I believe.

Saw this shirt...really liked it


Anyway onto the music hehe. Of course we have Thursday Thier first CD Waiting (at least with them they jump labels a lot) and I got 2 tracks here that's on that CD no their bests stuff but hey what can I say.

Ian Curtis
Porclean

Next band is My Chemical Romance. There CD is called I brought you my bullets, you brought me your love. The reason I found this bad was because of an accident. Geoff Rickley produced this CD the first article I read said that he was moon lighting. but good band to my ear in any fashion.

We got 2 for them too.
Vampires will never hurt you
This is the best day ever

Another band same label is called The Killing Tree. I don't know a thing about them simply that I like this song.
Everything you had is gone

Also I don't know Much about Interference other than I like this song.
Faith in me

The rest of the bands on this label...don't call to me Sleep station is too mellow and murder by death...eww but you can see for yourself.

Oh and

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNIOR TRILLO

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